Reminiscing

I close my eyes and the simple scent of your essence embraces me with sensuality and pure desire.  I picture myself on my knees, at your feet, tasting you - knowing that your passion for me was at its peak.  I recall feeling my throat engrossed with your penis, wrapped around you tightly as you became harder and your blood raced to the point of not knowing where to go.  I recall my juices trickling down my leg as you grasped the chair, trying to hold your composure, which increased my determination to allow you to lose control.  The more I pleased you, the more I felt my own nectar escaping.  I still taste you at the tip of my tongue when I hear your voice in its seductive mode, wanting me as much as I want you.  My dreams are filled with thoughts of bringing you only your ultimate ectasy. 
I remember what it felt like with you inside me, pushing against the depths of the walls of my vagina, fitting like the perfect glove in the midst of a crime of passion.  The absolute orgasm, me dripping all over your thighs as we both came at once.  My greed longs for more.  My hunger longs for more.  My only wish is that I reacted on this desire and showed you what I truly wanted and still want beside me. 
The sensuality of our bodies pressed up against one another wakes me, wanting you even more.  My thoughts are filled with nothing but you, being in your arms, snuggled tightly, protected, secure, the only way I can truly rest.  I need to taste you.  I need to feel you inside me.  I need you near me.  I want you so badly, my dreams are only of you.  Such satisfaction can only be accomplished with you - my dreams are merely the mediator til the next time.  I'm yours, on pause, on hold, until allowed to feel such ecstacy once again.

Dedication of Music

You Mean that Much - I can never find the words, the actions, the emotions to express how I feel, but tonight I do things the one way that we both know how.

You Couldn't See Me   - One thing you were always right about is that you never know what you have until it's gone or you lose the chance to truly make it your own.  I have never felt love the way you showed me.  Now, not having it, knowing it may be gone for good, it hurts.  But I'd rather be a part of your life than not at all.  I see you now more than ever.  I feel you now more than ever.  I'll never, ever let you down again.

Take Good Care of Your Heart - From this very moment forward, I promise, to always, no matter what, whether you give us a chance again to be together or not, to always take good care of your heart (as I trust you with mine).

Motivation

Motivation is a dedication to my heart...my soul...my mind...
     To ALWAYS be ... there ... for ... ME.
Motivation puts me first - on a throne - and will sacrifice...
          friends, associates, and even family ... potential loves...
               WHY?
                    My motivation knows my true worth.

Motivation, therefore, gives me purpose - For I, now strive, to show its efforts are not unfounded and will reciprocate its actions.

Motivation ... true motivation ... is felt deep and never fades, even when the storms come ... unconditional love.

Motivation ... can be fought off but will never lose, for it knows its purpose.

Inviscible, unbreakable ... never to be torn apart ... a rare connection ... Motivation.

Words From the Heart

As I slowly wake...the scent of your skin arouses me to a comfort zone I will forever hold in my memories. 
A tear slowly trickles down my cheek at the realization that the love that once was is temporarily separated by all the things we promised never to let interfere. 
The sound of your voice - still a memory in my heart - reminds me that two souls torn apart will always find their way home. 
This connections surpasses words - no possibility of definition - it's just simply felt...and treasured. 

I lose breath throughout the day at the mere thought of another intertwined within your arms - MY security...MY protection...MY comfort. 
As I gasp for air I reminisce of the times when our smiles were endless with pure happiness. 


The music that once brought joy now brings tears and heartache as those moments seem so distant. 
I cling to the past and pray that they will someday return...even more romantic...even more loving...even more sensual...because you are...
    my destiny, my best friend, my soulmate, my comforter...
          my Motivation.

He is...

An unconditional feeling that transcends the test of time..
He is my strength before weakness takes its toll...
He's my youth before stress and years allow me to get old...
He's the hand that reaches out to me before I fall...
He's the voice that gives me security when I hear him call...
He accepts my faults and assists me in the direction of the right path...
He allows me to apologize and never uses it against me...
He is the voice that whispers in my ear when I'm down that I'm not alone...
He is the feeling of protection...
                                        happiness...
                                             He is...LOVE.